flyingnakedtofu's Journal

3:43pm: online portfolio
Okay! I got my portfolio online! Check it out http://carlyveronica.blogspot.com/

11:23pm: This morning, my roommate Max realized that my other roommate Paul had been cooking chicken last night on the BBQ and forgot about it because he was drunk. Somehow all the burnt chicken ended up thrown across the yard. So Max went out into the yard to pick up the chicken and my other roommate Nioko who is Japanese , thought this was particularly funny and ran into the house to get her camera. She ran back out and began documenting the whole thing. For some reason I couldn't figure out if this was a partially funny event because she was a foreigner and everything is interesting when your a foreigner or if it was really funny. Either way I now have aspirations to be as excited about life as a Japanese tourist.

On another completely unrelated note, Here is a video from the band Múm. My toes curl in the most fantastic way when I hear this song. I am not sure how I feel about the video but the song makes me undoubtedly happy.

6:36pm: 16 mm fun
Here are two films I made this year on 16 mm film. The first one is color reversal and the second is hand processed black and white negative and tinted.

12:10am: I have been going through a bunch of old artwork to get my portfolio online. Here is a link to a short paint on glass animation my friend Victor and I made at my school in Paris last year. He just put sound on the file so we could put it on his website.

http://www.victorjaquier.net/carly_et_victor_painting.mov

2:58am: tarot reader

tarot reader
Originally uploaded by ChaqueSamedi.

this is how i feel when i read tarot and apparently how i look . photo by rachel

10:07pm: I have been working on some beat boards for my friend Rachel. She got nomanated to apply for the Princess Grace award. If she gets the money, it will be $25,000 and I will have a art directing job. It is between her and one other girl.

The story is of a 7 year old girl from a broken home. She is staying with her grandparents for the summer and has to be taken home to her dysfunctional family by her uncle who is in his early twenties.

9:21am: Lost Amongst the Whales
Well here it is. I joined Vimeo finally. I should have done that a long time ago, the quality is so much better.

Untitled from Carly White on Vimeo.

11:24pm: graduation and a few old photos


yayyyyy! i graduated.




character animation, class of 2009



mario , chris , melvina and i



mario, chris and i two years ago... ha ha



moi

now the old photos start



karaoke at city cat



thats me showing my French friends that LA has a metro





that was from my birthday

12:20am: the fantasy is always continuing. here we wish to be there... there we wish to be here. the nostalgia curls in my stomach, making me feel dizzy and slightly mad.

12:18am: ughhhh ... so much work and not enough hours in the day. Just 10 more days until graduation. If you are not graduating with me, come join the party. I swear i am going to have a life where I get to sleep 8 hours a day after this is over.

8:26am: now i am beginning to panic

12:10pm: Paris Graffiti Artists
On CBS Sunday morning, at le Forge, the artist community I would hang out at with my friends. Half these guys I would hang out with every weekend.
At least somewhere people appreciate art.

10:39am: you weren't made for this world, though i wouldn't really want to meet someone who was

9:10am: Why is it that when people come in to your life from your past, it is never just one.

2:31am: she said that sorrow is nothing but worn out joy...

-Old Joy directed by Kelly Reinhardt

12:14am: After a recent discovery of a tarantula outside my window, I am now afraid of Val Verde.

3:01pm: I don't think there is any way I can go to Coachella this year. The thought of it is burning my soul. Why are there so many good DJ's there this year and I have school? Grrrrr.....

8:25pm: Why is it raining? It never rains in LA... This is not helping my motivation to work. My graduation review is on Friday (panic)

10:51pm: au revoir mon ami
"This is just the way things go," said the little black crow outside her violet window.
"When you twist the life in between your fingers, you find it breaks. "
Apple fidgets with her skirt and presses her long finger to her lips... "shhhhhh.... don't tell me these things. I prefer to live in a black velvet room. Turn off the lights and tuck me in."
When she sits outside she just looks up to let the blue in. When she looks down she gets vertigo, she is always spinning.
It was not always this way. There was something lovely around every corner. Now when she looks at the city all she sees is dirt. The layers and layers of dirt on a city where it never rains. Now it seems, the people are covered in dirt, maybe they always were, maybe she just could not see it.
When she looks now it is all black and the mid afternoon perfect blue. Suddenly her mouth is sour.
She leans onto her bed and traces the shadows of the trees with her fingers.
"Don't mind the cracks, "she whispers, " Si tu été dans le gris tu es dans le noir maintenant. J'embrasserai ton étoiles et dirai au revoir. C'est fini maintenant . Au revoir déception. Je ne tu manqueras jamais."

6:26pm: " It is for the artist to move society through chaos and order. When Society becomes stagnated, all is lost." -Joseph Beuys

The artist must be constantly changing and not fit onto a container for society to "deal with"

In world war 2, the plane he was flying crashed and he was rescued by a Tartar tribesmen. Much of his work deals with his rescue. He was wrapped in animal fat and felt and then taken to a near by hospital.
I saw a Joseph Buys and Matthew Barney (whom I just adore ) in the Guggenheim in Venice last summer during the Biennale di Venezia.
Today, just enchanted by his words...

7:14pm: I got my Burning Man ticket in the mail today!!!

2:17am: He laughed as he explained that you pretend to be sober as you drive your way through Silverlake. "The cops just don't care, it's just a few blocks."

I can't pretend I don't feel the emptiness in the concrete dividers. I can't say it is not eating away at my humanity. I am leaving for Costa Rica, I am Leaving for Paris... where are you going...? A city is a city is a city... I am trying to find life in between the concrete, endless roads with their yellow lines. But where... where oh where do you exist within?

5:16pm: YES!!! the fish are eating his face...

and for some reason I am binge watching that show Weeds. I like to pretend all the suburban house wives in Valencia are selling marijuana, it makes the walk through Vons a little more interesting...

1:09am: I am completely in love with 16 mm film. So much that it makes me gitty and it is hard to sleep. Digital, you have nothing on film.

9:19pm: "If the doors of perception were cleansed everything would appear to man as it is - infinite." - William Blake